Life is held between these walls

In the winter of 2022 we bought our house in a small village. We left a small yet adorable apartment in the city of Amsterdam and moved a few miles away to an idyllic place. The hopes for this change of scenery was to live a more peaceful life. Where I wasn't run by the hectics of life, but by an inner calm. I wanted to hear my own thoughts over the noise of everyone else's. And that I did.

Opinion: Privilege in modern day wellness

I wrote about the privilege of modern self care before, but never as articulate as Zadie Smith put it in an interview (2018) with Arnon Grunberg. She talks about the privilege of focusing on your existential identity while others still have to make room for their political identity. In other words, there is no room to question the existential: "Who am I? What will my place be in this world?" If you are still making the world around you aware that the physical you, the political you is just as valuable and deserves the same autonomous reality that they know for themselves.

Portrait of a Muse no.1

Khadija El Kharraz Alami (30) is an actress and playwright. You might know her from a Dutch series called Penoza, Melk & Dadels and her acclaimed solo: Nu ben ik Medea (Now I’m Medea). In this Portrait of a Muse we talk of the loves of her life and personal growth.

A note from the editor

In the midst of chaos and exhaustion, the one truly transformative thing we can do is make a micro-decision towards a different outcome than the reality that is current. Educate yourself on the spot, pick up a pencil to make your emotion into art or put your money where your mouth is. Start a dialogue with someone outside your regular spectrum, and for some this means having a dialogue with self.